So it’s been a little over a month since I set my recovery goals with all of you and now I believe it’s time to hold myself accountable. So this is my first monthly check-in for where I am at on my Recovery goals. I decided on writing this because I didn’t want this to be an empty promise I made on the internet. These goals are important to me and I want to do them and do them right.
“To do more for myself, and less for others” I have been reading about boundaries, and working on and setting boundaries with my friends other and people I associate with. And so far I think I have done well on this goal, though maintaining it has not been easy. I often feel like I need to apologize for stating my needs and limits, but that gets me nowhere. I also have to live with the fact that people may not like my new rules may dislike me because of it. On that front, I have to remind myself that there is no way I can be liked by everyone without compromising what makes me, me.
“To have less stimulation” has in many ways been a failure. I have been carving out time daily to create with no success as to what I want to do with that time. The intent behind this goal was to be more creative by being less entertained daily. So basically I wanted to control my creativity, which is of course nearly impossible for me. I do think that it’s a bonus if I’m not as stimulated, so for now, I’m going to keep this goal but maybe rephrase it as “to set aside creative time”.
“To read more.” This goal is easy to achieve, however, I have yet to finish a book, or stick to one book at a time. I have read maybe 5 books a chapter each since the making of this goal. I would like to finish a book, something more concrete than just reading more frequently. So yes, I am achieving this goal but without the specifics, I don’t feel like it’s doing anything for me.
“To speak up for myself.” As I have said I’ve been advocating what I need with others it’s been difficult but I feel like I’m getting better at it. If I had to rate my ability on a scale of one to ten I would say I’m a 7 on this. 7, because while I have tried to be more transparent about my needs, I still have a lot to work through on this.
“To take care of my physical health” so I have gone to the doctor recently and we talked about my health and what areas I need to improve on. So for now I want to say that I have been prioritizing m health to my best ability
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